Last Night I Wrote, and today I post…

 I decided last night to just lose sight or track of what I was doing and forgot to post this….ps. the post that I posted today is beneath this post and should be read before hand. ..ok not really.

Doctors, what are they to you?

How do you truly feel about doctors? I mean honestly? Even if you are a doctor yourself would you really want to place your entire mind, body and soul into a imperfect person? It’s not that I dislike the doctor as a person but to be able to put your trust into someone that you hardly know sounds kind-of absurd.

So this is where my random rampage through the medical dictionaries lies…I have just been diagnosed/labelled/whatever you want to call it as temporarily bi-polar. The doctor is not sure that I actually am Bi-polar but would like to try medications to see if they help. Well from all the doctors that I have ever went to have diagnosed me as a depressive adhd child…so why the change now? I know the meds for the depressive adhd child have not worked completely so it should rise some susupicion but being bipolar? really?

im not saying that its the end of the world becuase its not but going through medication after medication just to find one that may or may not work is not my idea of a good time.

anyway im tired. last night took a first dose of seroquel and skipped two of my classes this morning and i have one at 430 tonight…i dont really feel like going…i dont know what i feel like doing, screaming maybe…im very dull right now…its like some awkward depressive state.

~ by icedhot on February 2, 2008.